Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Imagination

Happiness is all but an illusion, true happiness is a figment of the imagination.
The truth is happiness was created so that people will not know the truth.

Once you know, there can never be happiness.
People create suffering to fool themselves into thinking there is happiness.

The truth is that people find happiness in other’s suffering.

Here I am, I know the truth. I will always suffer because that was my destiny.

I will never be allow to leave the place that cause me the most pain.

Others see it as fulfillment that I can never find true happiness, but it’s okay. I pretend that I have happiness so that they can live in their world of happiness that is far from the truth.

I know better. Happiness is a lie, suffering is a lie.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

An open letter to any possible future partner(s)

Hey you,

The first thing you should know about me is that I would rather marry for money than love. The second is that I don’t believe in true love and all that.

You would probably know that I wear my heart on my sleeve, if I know you well. You would probably know that I have lots of issues and dramatic acts, I hope you don’t mind them.

My heart is closed off for so long because I fell in love with someone whom I deemed perfect. But there is no perfect, there is no right. But you know that to me he is, even after all these years. 

You might be the one, but who really knows. 

You would probably know that I am insecure about everything. You would probably know that I care a lot about how I make others feel. You would probably know that I don’t have a lot of people I can depend on, so please don’t let me down. 

I need constant reminders that I am okay. I need constant reminders that I am enough. But please don’t lie. You should know that, I don’t do well when people lie. 

I am a huge mess but please love this mess. I would try my best to love you as well. 

So you, I believe that you would make me believe in love. That you are that closest thing to true love. When I’m with you, even with all my imperfection, I would be the perfect imperfection. 

You, My possible parter, thank you for putting up with me. All of me, with all my imperfections, with all my insecurities, with all my faults, and with all of me.

Thank you. Even if you might break my heart, please know that a part of me will always love you. Thank you, thank you, thank you for loving me.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Another blast from the past

I found a quote I wrote about my first love.

If you said the moon was square and made of cheese, I would believe it without a thought.

It’s funny, if he told me to go right, I wouldn’t even look left. If he told me to tell him what’s the matter, I tell him. 

Maybe if he told me today, I would still believe him. I turn into that innocent girl when I see him. All the things that happened, I’m not the same innocent girl but he is still my first love.

A reminder from the past

I found this quote I wrote on facebook in 2009 and it still rings true today.

Life is way too short to hate, gotta look forward and keep on going. Let haters hate and lovers love; at the end of the day just look forward. It all happens for that reason (good or bad), and just look forward. No matter how hard it is, it too shall pass. Always keep the faith in all things, love & respect all things. That’s the only way to roll.

A lot of things were happening at the end of 2009 and I wrote that to keep me going. It was a good reminder today!

Tuesday, June 10, 2014
My best friend’s cats. Anna and Karl

My best friend’s cats. Anna and Karl

My favourite pair of shoes. Creative Recreation, women’s Galow high top back with lace.

My favourite pair of shoes. Creative Recreation, women’s Galow high top back with lace.

So I uploaded the pics on the wrong account for the past few days.
Here is it. 
My favourite scene from Big.

So I uploaded the pics on the wrong account for the past few days.
Here is it.
My favourite scene from Big.

Friday, June 6, 2014
Sunny, sunny, sunny

Sunny, sunny, sunny

Thursday, June 5, 2014
Happy belated birthday. I am usually on time but this year, sorry.

Happy belated birthday. I am usually on time but this year, sorry.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014
View from my gym.

View from my gym.

(Late) A dinner by myself. That’s okay.

(Late) A dinner by myself. That’s okay.

Monday, June 2, 2014
(Late) Alone time and found this.

(Late) Alone time and found this.

(Late) I love my Guiness.

(Late) I love my Guiness.

Friday, May 30, 2014
A puppy in a trolley.

A puppy in a trolley.

(It didn’t upload) Yummy dinner at Craft.

(It didn’t upload) Yummy dinner at Craft.